" I cry out to God Most High, to God who will fulfill his purpose for me." Psalm 57:2
I have been faced with a bit of a challenge that has turned out more serious than I had expected. For the last 2 months, I have been experiencing numbness and tingling down the left side of my body...mainly in my left leg and on the left side of my cheek. After seeing a sports medicine doctor, 1 month of physical therapy, and seeing a Neurologist for a nerve conduction test - nothing changed or showed up through x-rays, blood work, or the nerve test.
This week, the Neurologist scheduled an MRI on Monday. A vascular cavernous malformation (AVM) was found on the right side of my brainstem, which they believe is the source of the problem. A CAT scan was quickly ordered the next day and they were able to see that I was not born with this, rather it's newer in age, and measures 1.2 cm and that there are 2 other small ones on either side of it. We do not know the exact cause.
So what next? We are waiting to see 2 different neurosurgeons to get 2 different opinions on the best treatment available at this time. Because of the location in the brainstem, it's a very delicate area that most surgeons would like to avoid operating on. Hopefully we will be able to see someone soon to put our minds at ease. But most importantly, I just ask for your prayers and for the Lord to provide peace and comfort for Eric and I during this waiting period.
In everything that I have to do, I must remind myself and know that I am an instrument in His hand. It is God that does everything through me, so I know I'm never alone and that asking for God's help & direction will get us through this. I call out to Him and leave fear and worry in His hands, not my own.
In my quiet time this morning I reflected on Paul's prayer for spiritual empowerment of the Ephesians and made it my own prayer to the Lord:
"For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.